"I hope you fall in love
I just wish everything would be better. But the truth is I don’t even know what better is going to feel like. I feel as if this current situation is our whole relationship — this stupid and horrible and complicated situation. I don’t know how long before it ends or if it’s ever going to end. You said you already told JV about us but she still calls you ‘mister ko’ and you told your mom so now she isn’t speaking to you. And I know your mom’s just really scared of what might happen. I’m sorry that I get hurt when I see you with her. I just actually want to dismiss any negative feeling I have whenever I think about the fact that she lives in your house and sleeps in the same room as you. Because I want that, too. And I’m being clingy again.
I’m clingy by nature, so once I stop, then you know it’s over.
While walking with my friend and nephew and texting bae
- Me: Pagod na ko.
- R: Nakikipagbreak ka na naman ba?
- Me: Maglakad talaga. Hahaha.
Shit. I’m in too deep. I don’t think I can bear to lose you. Not anymore.